The last couple of weeks iv been thinking about my sexuality alot. I'm not really sure why, i guess because i was jus recently made single, and i was debating whether i actually want a guy again. I've always known i was bi, iv had a girlfriend in the past. But i began questioning whether any of the relationships iv had with guys have actually seemed enjoyable to me. And today i realized, i love hanging out with guys but i don't every like getting, ahem, intimate, with them and i don't like any kind of displays of affection with them bar the occasional hugs. And it got me thinking, have my relationships been more than jus company and tbh, i don't think they have :/ I think all i've ever wanted in my relationship with guys is someone to be there. I don't think iv ever felt romantic about a guy whereas i have about girls in the past. So that pretty much got me thinking to i'm probably gay, which is cool but i'm never gonna find a girlfriend becuase i don't really go anywhere where id meet other gay girls. Mm, i don't wanna make this a self pitying post. I just want a girlfriend Someone to love, to be there for and to care for. Someone to make my world.