Hi I'm 20 and at Uni in the UK. I didn't really know what is was until recently. Always assumed it was another name for Schizophrenia. Saw a program about it and it really opened my mind, but left my questioning myself. You see some days..are good. I look good, and am just in a good mood, even if bad stuff happens I'll stay in a good mood sometimes - and just charge it to the way things are supposed to be. I feel like someone important and get looks from girls that really boosts my confidence. Others are bad...I look and feel like shit, I question everything; every relationship in my life, just my existence in general. I often compare myself to others and end up in a hole. I feel ugly, short and fat - why would any girl like me? Like I said I analyze everything and come to the conclusion that the only friend in my life is my slightly younger sis - and everyone else is just fake. I wouldn't say my mood swings are drastic or anything; it just varies gradually, day by day, or over the course of a day. It can be something like going from thinking my glasses are cool and in fashion, to thinking im a blind geek. When I read up about it, it talked about sex drive too. That when in a positive mood you have a high sex drive, but when depressed you completely ignore this. I would say this is true too,I always used to think I thought about sex too much, its less now but its still there for sure. There is no history of bipolar as such in my family, but there is some of depression on my mother's side of the family (I am like her lot). I act normal to people, and no-one would ever say this about me. But I've noticed it with my best mate that when we chat sometimes im in a gd happy mood and other times im moaning and depressed. This can happen over the course of a few hours. ALso I'm very sensitive, especially for a guy (so sexist people would think :dry: ). Like, even someone going without saying goodbye from work or on msn upsets me. I can honestly say I ALWAYS make the effort to say goodbye to all my friends, wherever we are. I want to add one of the...weirdest things. When I was really young I made up an imaginary person that I'd be..like a celebrity...an actor...or wrestler, and I'd pretend I was this person, and even make up imaginary events that would happen and stuff in my head. The thing is...I still do and I'm 20 now...and I just can't stop.......I don't think I AM this person, it's just a little fictional world I like to escape to...it's cut down ALOT but I still get it at times where I pretending I'm this person in a new film or being interviewed. No-one knows this...it's strictly between me and myself. IT's really worrying... I'm not sure if I actually am "manic depressive" or bipolar, but so many signs point to this. I really don't know what to do because I really do contemplate if anyone would miss me and stuff like just going away, I blame this for breaking up me and my gf because I was so insecure and would just get into moods where I'd argue with her for nothing. And now I relise I made a huge mistake because we're such a good match. It's ruining my life, I suffer from low confidence and am generally shy. Sorry for such a long post...I'm just so confused and in a low mood...I just had to ask on here where people may have had past experience of this and be able to help. Thanks you to anyone who takes the time to read and help. God bless, tip.