Hi. I'm 13 years old ,14 in june . I think i need urgent help . i have on real good friend in secoundary school. he calls me names though as a mess . but sometimes he goes to far by saying "no one likes you". i got in a fight with a guy over facebook. at first i was messing with him but then he starts calling me bad names . he said "you have no friends , no one likes you. you might as well be dead " this made me feel really depressed . i would read a book sometimes just to forget it. i sometimes try to actually find a way to kill me . i cant with a gun because . well you know, its a gun. but i would sometimes hold a bread knife up to my heart or throath but i dont want it to be painful.I tried talking to someone but they think im joking , theres people in my school who help other people with this . i never get a chance though. i dont know weather people will be sad or happy if i die . or weather people will just forget about me . there was a guy who aaid he was going to commit suicide but i dont want everyone to know i think i need urgent help . what should i do? should i just kill myself and get it over with. or should I live life and "enjoy " it .