SO, long story short, I'm 32, have no friends, a ridiculous job that I work at least 90hrs per week for crappy pay from, no life and a shitty family I currently live with. I am so numb, my mum is terribly emotionally abuse and I am currently halving responsibilities to take care of my dad who has had a massive stroke and is severely disabled. I drink too much, so did he, so that's a major issue in our household, my mum will not look to herself to see what a terrible person she has become she is so abusive mentally and physically and I can't take anymore. Everything is my fault, I am told I'm a failure, a fatso, a lazy person and I know in my heart that's not the truth (except for the fatty part!) I work all the time but its never enough, I'm absolutely taken for granted, she interferes in everything and its her way or the highway. She has always been very manipulative and overbearing but since my dad got sick its unbearable. The only thing keeping me here is my dog, I love her so much but as time goes on my options feel less and less and ending it all seems the only solution. I know moving out is the best thing but its not that easy :-( Feeling so dispondant, don't know what to do, I have zero confidence, less than zero money and no life of my own. I don't know who I am anymore.