I think I only have one option left

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Bruces, Mar 21, 2015.

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  1. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    I'm out of options the ocd will never go how can I carry on been so useless I'd surely better not been here
     
  2. Everymedhasfailed

    Everymedhasfailed Active Member

    I do not suffer with OCD, but there is a lady at my work who used to be terrible with it. She has told me stories of how she lost her job due to being constantly late, just because of her showering habits... But you need to know that she got help through exposure therapy and systematic desentisation therapy, and now she is a completely different person! She eats at her desk, touches door handles; bathroom door locks; doesnt put paper on the toilet seat anymore... and she is so much happier!

    She said to me (I suffer from extreme anxiety and a possible personality disorder) that finding the right doctor is everything! Finding the one doctor who is willing to listen, understand and not judge you on your darkest moments is the greatest thing that helped her. I recently registered with a new doctors surgery and asked if there were and GP's/Family doctors who either specialised or had an interest in mental illness... These are the doctors who can signpost the correct and appropriate treatments for you!

    Just stay strong and know that you aren't alone, and that your eccentricities are what make you special!

    take it easy
     
  3. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    I've tried every damn thing
     
  4. bayareagirl

    bayareagirl Well-Known Member

    Bruces, I have the handbook for Obsessive Compulsive Anonymous. I'd be happy to send it to you if you'd like to have it.
     
  5. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Always here if you need to talk bruces, sorry you're feeling so down :hug:
     
  6. Everymedhasfailed

    Everymedhasfailed Active Member

    I am so sorry that you are feeling down... And that the techniques used so far have not been able to help... Do you know the root cause of your OCD? Helping to identify this will help you along way towards sorting out your emotional state and your compulsive habits...

    Just know we are here and willing to help you in any way we can! Take the offer of the book if you feel comfortable with it, as it sounds like an amazing place to start understanding yourself! (My personal opinion)

    Take it easy!
     
  7. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    I can't cope with been mentally I'll
     
  8. AAA3330

    AAA3330 Well-Known Member

    I can't either Bruces. It really sucks. My brain is so much different than it was that I feel like a different person.
     
  9. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    I don't want to be here
     
  10. Everymedhasfailed

    Everymedhasfailed Active Member

    You may not want to be here now, or even tomorrow... Hell maybe not even next week or year... But you will look back in five, ten years time at how you got through this and know how this made you a stronger person!

    I hope that you can find some light within the darkness, we should all be able to, and that may seem non-sensical right now because of the despair you feel... But from people I know who have been through dark times and gottan through it... Just know that adversity is there to make you stronger, not break you down!
     
  11. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    I can't see the light only darkness I'm also destroying my family at same time
     
  12. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    I was ok 3 years ago
     
  13. Everymedhasfailed

    Everymedhasfailed Active Member

    And three years from now you may be okay again... Just know that the help is out there somewhere, be it professionally, on the internet, or through friend you have not met yet... Do not do anything you may live to regret... I KNOW I HAVE!
     
  14. AAA3330

    AAA3330 Well-Known Member

    I was ok about 2 and a half years ago. I hate my life and what has happened to me. I hate it.
     
  15. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    What have you done that u regret
     
  16. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    I used to have a job and a girl what a mess I've made
     
  17. AAA3330

    AAA3330 Well-Known Member

    I used to have a good job that I was really good at. I was always super smart, but now my mind is just a mess. I had a really good life and it all got messed up and it just makes me feel sick inside. This all happened after I got stressed out over a disability review. I wouldn't have thought that stress would damage my brain, but apparently it did.
     
  18. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    I wish my life would end tommorow
     
  19. bayareagirl

    bayareagirl Well-Known Member

    Bruces, would your insurance approve ECT for the OCD?
     
  20. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    There is nothing to live for
     
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