High school is starting soon, for the second time.
Yes, I am the faliure who failed last year of high school because of depression, self harm, and suicidal behaviour.
So I am doing it , again.
Fear is controlling me, my anxiety is worsening, I am selfharming steady again, crying, maniac grins, seems like we r ready for a full collapse.
I have 2 paths to go down.
Wether I suck it up , get through this year, do well, and be a person I don't hate when I see in the mirror.
Or collapse under the pressure , and do badly at school, and end my life.
Mind my dear fellas, I don't get to pick, it will go down, the way it will, and only god decides.
I am a lost cause.
Worthless being.
I don't deserve my life.
I wish I. .. just go
Its not fair to make my parents suffer because of me.
It's not fair to use my friends to get better.
I will make them hate me, so that they don't grief after I am gone.
I just wanted to write this, I don't feel well.
No one has to say anything.
Yes, I am the faliure who failed last year of high school because of depression, self harm, and suicidal behaviour.
So I am doing it , again.
Fear is controlling me, my anxiety is worsening, I am selfharming steady again, crying, maniac grins, seems like we r ready for a full collapse.
I have 2 paths to go down.
Wether I suck it up , get through this year, do well, and be a person I don't hate when I see in the mirror.
Or collapse under the pressure , and do badly at school, and end my life.
Mind my dear fellas, I don't get to pick, it will go down, the way it will, and only god decides.
I am a lost cause.
Worthless being.
I don't deserve my life.
I wish I. .. just go
Its not fair to make my parents suffer because of me.
It's not fair to use my friends to get better.
I will make them hate me, so that they don't grief after I am gone.
I just wanted to write this, I don't feel well.
No one has to say anything.