The last couple monthes I really took it apon myself to try and improve my life. I was depressed for many years not doing anything but staying in my room for 4 years. I really think that nothing good in life will ever happen and I'll never find love or even some fun with girls. So I decided to give life another shot I got back into school and have been going to class. I want to just do everything on my own and not talk to anyone but what does my teacher always do these child like group assignments that forces me to talk to people. Maybe its a good thing who knows but its annoying. So I'm trudging along just trying to find any good in my life trying to just get by this class. This stupid teacher goes on some rant about getting a study buddy etc. Then this extremely hot girl asks me a question. Now I suck at getting girls and since I've been so depressed about it the past 4 years I don't even talk to them anymore. People however told me class is a good place to meet girls instead of clubs etc where coinceded girls hang out. So I wanted to just talk to her to try and just gain some confidence. So while she was asking questions and I was telling her what to do WHILE BASICALLY THE WHOLE CLASS IS TALKING!!! Then I turn around and see the Teacher and students looking at me all weird. So basically I was coock blocked again like always even by some miracle a girl wants to talk to me someone else will always come by to make sure I fail. It always happens that way with me. I don't even know why I try living or anything. I feel its better to not exist anymore than in this society that hates me.