I left my husband because I didn't think he was giving me enough attention... 2 weeks I come back bawling and he won't take me back cuz he think I'll just ned up leaving agin and believe me, one time was enough to realize what I had an what I want.... even whe I was wit him I wass kinda suicidal, but since I've left and he won't take me back I've already starting cutting again... I've gotten his gun <edit mod total eclipse triggering> but I didn't have the guts to pull the trigger... I wish I would have I'm thinking about doing it tonight... I think I will, he obviously doesn't care and anytime I need to talk noone seems to be "available" I honestly don't think anyone will care I know I'll go to hell and I tink that's the main reason I haven't done it yet, but cutting can only mae me feel better for a short amount of time I'm homeless, alone, broke, jobless and I think I'd be less of a burden if I was gone... I was thinking about checking into the local nuthouse, but from what I've heard they don't care about people that don't have health insurance...... I think I'm done with this, all of it... I'm done putting on a fake smile and living with my regrets. I'm just done.