I've been heavily depressed this past few weeks. When I try looking back, I realized I might have been showing some rather emotionally manipulative tendencies to make my online friends feel sorry for me and to make them 'stay'. I hate this. I've became the kind of person I've always hated. It makes me think that I really don't deserve any help and better off dead. I want to stop but I don't know how without feeling even more depressed, lonely, or abandoned. Any advice is greatly appreciated.