I think I'm falling apart...

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by leptoon, May 22, 2007.

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  1. leptoon

    leptoon Well-Known Member

    I just made mac and cheese. Not because I was hungry, but because it reminds me of back when my parents were married and I was in elementary school and everything was right... my dad used to make mac and cheese every Friday and we would watch a movie. I made it and I went into the living room with it and I put in a movie and I just sat there with it and cried. I'm still crying. I miss back then when I didn't have any problems and my parents still loved each other and we were all happy together. I wish i could just go back in time to that time and live forever at my old house on Sir Phillip.

    I think I might be loosing it... When I was making it, I sprayed some of my dad's old cologne in the air and actually started talking to him like I was 6 again and he was in the kitchen making mac and cheese.

    Why can't I just go back to those times... why can't my life just stop sucking...

    I have tried to tell myself suicide isn't the answer, but I don't know anymore... its never going to get any better.

    I am falling apart... please help me...

    I loved my daddy before he left and I don't want to hate him, but I do... He is the only person I ever hated and ever will hate.

    I'm still crying... Please let me go back.
  2. RainbowChaser

    RainbowChaser Well-Known Member


    If it helps, I really don't think you're 'losing it' - sometimes doing things like this can help us.
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