Hey,
I am sixteen, and for the past year, I have been wondering if I was gay. When I was about 13 I started having weird feelings towards other guys, but not girls. I thought it was just a stage so I just went along with it, and now I think it is just who I am. Let me explain a little more.
I am sexually attracted to guys, that took alot to type right there, but I also like girls, I can tell when a girl is hot, and I enjoy looking at girls, but I don't know if I like them sexually. My Sex Ed. teacher in 7th grade, said that guys start to like girls around the age of 16, and I am starting to like them more than i di, but I still prefer to think about guys, and it is kind of creepy...
Am I really a hetrosexual, just waiting to bloom, or am I just gay, and trying to mentally convince myself that I am straight? I can't take it. And furthermore, if I acually AM gay, there is absolutley no way I can tell my parents. I know my dad will be really disappointed in me, and I know my mom will be too. They are huge mega Christians and they think that being gay is peverse and immoral. I managed to hide my sexuality inside of me so far, and no one has even caught on to the fact that I am gay, but it just doesn't feel right. Like, when my friends, who are guys that I am NOT attracted to, my friends are just friends nothing more, when they talk about girls and vagina, and breats, i go along and stuff but I just don't feel comfortable talking about it.
Please help me, and I apologize for the typing and crappy organization, my mind is so bogged down because of this, will I have to live my whol life wondering if I am just going to be some gay guy who will never really accomplish anything. I get good grades in school, almost a 4.0GPA, and I want to become a doctor, get married, and have some kids, but I don't know if I will ever like women enough to do that.
Please help, I want to be straight, and I want to have meaning in life, help me.
:blub:
I am sixteen, and for the past year, I have been wondering if I was gay. When I was about 13 I started having weird feelings towards other guys, but not girls. I thought it was just a stage so I just went along with it, and now I think it is just who I am. Let me explain a little more.
I am sexually attracted to guys, that took alot to type right there, but I also like girls, I can tell when a girl is hot, and I enjoy looking at girls, but I don't know if I like them sexually. My Sex Ed. teacher in 7th grade, said that guys start to like girls around the age of 16, and I am starting to like them more than i di, but I still prefer to think about guys, and it is kind of creepy...
Am I really a hetrosexual, just waiting to bloom, or am I just gay, and trying to mentally convince myself that I am straight? I can't take it. And furthermore, if I acually AM gay, there is absolutley no way I can tell my parents. I know my dad will be really disappointed in me, and I know my mom will be too. They are huge mega Christians and they think that being gay is peverse and immoral. I managed to hide my sexuality inside of me so far, and no one has even caught on to the fact that I am gay, but it just doesn't feel right. Like, when my friends, who are guys that I am NOT attracted to, my friends are just friends nothing more, when they talk about girls and vagina, and breats, i go along and stuff but I just don't feel comfortable talking about it.
Please help me, and I apologize for the typing and crappy organization, my mind is so bogged down because of this, will I have to live my whol life wondering if I am just going to be some gay guy who will never really accomplish anything. I get good grades in school, almost a 4.0GPA, and I want to become a doctor, get married, and have some kids, but I don't know if I will ever like women enough to do that.
Please help, I want to be straight, and I want to have meaning in life, help me.
:blub: