Evenin' all. I know i posted yesterday but i still feel crap. But recently...well for about 10 years i've kept everything built up, everything that hurt me stayed inside me (wahey) and at first i kept my rage in by clamping on my lips, my youngest brother always took the piss out of me whenever i did this saying "Your doing your stupid angry face again" which didn't help, which followed a fight, which followed me being hit and being told that i can't hurt him, i'm 4 years older than he is (back when i was 10 and he was 6) but he really did grind my gears. I got bullied at school from year 4 til year 11. Being told i'm a disgrace to the nation, and when we were mean't to organise things as a class, it was always "We don't want you to help, we don't like you". Fast forward til recently and my mouth twitch has now developed to an eye twitch and this isn't when i'm annoyed, this is anytime. Also, i have visions of me xxxx different people that i have been in confrention with in ways which would've before disturbed me, like using xxxxx, xxxxx, xxxxx etc etc. I just feel like i am losing my mind and (if you read my previous post) my will to live. I just feel like giving up and i honestly don't know what to do.