I think I am going to die soon. It might be because I asked God to give me a new life. I wanted to be a guardian and rescue lost souls. I'll go somewhere else. It's ok. I just think it'll make me sad. I'll miss people. I've been contacted by ghosts before, and took their pictures. The mystery of death has been resolved. Maybe if I could experience madness it would help, that's like death in and of itself. Mom is back to normal almost, she and I have schizophrenia. I suddenly realize that if I were to die a little more inside, I might feel better.