Soo here I am again up at three in the morning deciding wether I should live or not. Lately the thought about killing myself has invaded my thoughts... Its all I think about even at school with friends I just hate my life and i want it over with i feel like i can never come back from the huge hole ive put myself in.. and deep down inside i know if ido continue to live itll always be like this no matter how much i try or how much i want it itll never happen for me. happyness is something i can never have. i look at the people around me, envious, they dont know how much they have that i never got to experince.but whats it matter if i do die anyway? no one will care..