I really think I'm losing it. I am so depressed, and want the pain to stop. I don't feel anyone cares, so in return I have chosen to not care about anyone else. In my last post 'Why bother' I talked about my mom, and since then I have really slipped into a major depression. I can't deal with this much more. I took some pills and they are hitting hard. Which I know has caused the mood change and the feelings of being hopeless. I want so bad for someone to save me, and I know that I have to try to save myself. I just don't feel that I can. It really doesn't matter anymore. Whatever happens, happens. The thing of it is, is that I don't want to be this way. I want to really live and be happy. But I will admit I enjoy the feeling that I get when I do take the pills. I guess there is no escape from these feelings. I apologize for being so negative. I feel empty and lonely, and I am so upset with myself for not being able to pull it together. If anyone would like to talk outside of here my email is firstname.lastname@example.org I feel like taking more, and I probably will. Thanks for reading this stupid post. Anna Noone worry I'm not going to od.