Hey TheLovelyBones19, I am Mox
Welcome to SF and thank you for joining us. Here at SF you are safe. No one will make fun of you, or ridicule you. That behavior is not tolerated here at SF. If you think you are not safe from hurting yourself please go to the nearest ER and get the help you need. People often feel suicidal when their lifes stressors exceeds their ability to cope with them. And I feel like reading the conversation, you sound very overwhelmed. Everyone here is dealing with their own issues.
Please take a moment and read my personal story in green, below this reply. To know you are not the only one in pain. You are not the only one that has suicidal thoughts. Personally, I have them everyday; but a young daughter that would be devastated if anything happens to me; keeps me here.
SF "works" be people sharing their stories, and we will rally around them with emotional support and offer you ideas on how to help you. It may not always be pretty but it is from the heart. The more you share, the more we can help. I encourage you to let it all out , whatever your situation is. There is probably someone here that has been through something similar life experience. If it is important to you , than it is important to us. We care for you. You are not alone in this fight. We are here to help you. But you have to take the first step and share with us your story. No one is going to call the police on you or anything of that nature. You are completely anonymous.
If it something you wish to keep private for whatever reason then please do that by PM'g or IM'g me. I promise your story is safe with me.
If you are unsure of how to post your story or any other function of SF, do not be shy; reach out to us. We will help you.
Have you thought about seeing a counselor? If you are suicidal then it is probably a good idea. Are you seeing a psychiatrist? Maybe seeing one will help you get meds that will help you feel better. There is no shame in getting the help you need. The help you deserve.
Please take care of yourself