I'm feeling extremely lonely and depressed. I have an intersex condition, Klinflelter's Syndrome that has ruined my life. It affected my sexual development at puberty. Basically I have no muscle development, gynecomastia and diagnosed with a micropenis. I was relentlessly ridiculed in my teens. The few times I even attempted relationships, girls either laughed in my face or had nothing to do with me after attempting to have sex. As a result, I isolated myself and avoided intimacy. I lost the few friends I had in my early 20s after they were married. I've pretty much been alone my entire life since. I have no confidence or self esteem. I had gynecomastia surgery several years ago but what does that even matter when I still have a micropenis. No girl would ever want to be with me when everything seems to evolve around sex. I feel worthless as a human being and really just ready to end it all. I've tried to find hobbies to help distract me from all of this but nothing helps anymore. I don't want to be old and completely alone. I've recently lost my one long distance friend that I have had for the past 14 years (which we mostly chatted online) who also had issues and I could relate too. Now I'm completely alone and isolated in this world. I'm in my 40s now. Most people my age are married with kids in high school or college. I'm not sure how I managed to meander through life this long without offing myself. I'm such a failure at everything that I'm sure if I tried to end my life I'll just end up worse off in a failed suicide attempt. I really want to die. The one regret I have is that my two cats, which I care for, will die without me.