I think its time...

[Gregg]

I am only 14, my mum has a mental illness (something to do with a imbalance of chemicals in the brain) which makes her very angry, aggressive, obnoxious, constantly moan and pick on you and not understand your feelings.

She had medication, which up until I was 11 she took happily, then for some reason she stopped. For two years I took shout after shout without being able to shout back as it just made her worse. When I was 13 she got a lot worse, started seeing things in paintings and such... she was then put in a mental hospital. While it hurt I was kinda happy as at least she was getting treatment. But I think got my hopes to high when she came out and for 3 weeks was like the mum I remembered from my past, for the first time in ages I felt happy… then it all changed.. she decided to not take the medication and went back to her normal self. I felt so bad and depressed, I talked to my dad and he just said “I will try to sort something out” He didn’t and I got worse… I asked him again and he was like “You just have to live with it, theirs nothing a doctor would do, your too young to be given drugs.” Well the last week Ive had a sudden turn.. I frankly don’t care anymore, I’m gonna kill myself as I see no options left.

I feel lonely, depressed, sad and angry, my dad didn’t even take me seriously when I said I was going to kill myself, I had to jump out my window for him to believe me and then he said he would take me to a doctor. Its to late ive lost all care in this world. Does anyone else feel like this? Like they just don’t see no point. Because I really would like to know how you get to care again before next Friday otherwise I think I’m going to do it.

Thanks for your time.

 

[Jenny]

Hi Gregg,

I'm so sorry that my reply to your thread is so late.. I've only just seen this thread, I just hope that you're still around and will check back in on the forum to see this reply. How are you doing now? I hope that things have improved somewhat at home for you, and that you're not feeling as hopeless..

Sorry too that the situation with your mum has had such an impact on your life. It's understandable that you're feeling so down.. you're at an age where your parents should be there for you, not the other way round. I hope that your dad has finally listened to you and taken you seriously.. would you consider making an appointment with your doctor and explaining how difficult things are for you? Or is there any one else in your life, like a friend or teacher, who you would trust enough to confide in? You deserve help, love and support.. and while your mum isn't well enough to provide you it, i hope you're able to reach out to someone else who is.

We're here for you too.. i do hope that you check back in on the forum and see this.. im thinking of you
:arms:
Jenny x

 

[Isa]

You can make an appointment to see a doctor on your own, ask a friend to go with you or go via your school nurse.

Depression often follows genetically and with such a turmoilutous upbringing its no wonder you cant cope.

Your school also may have a counsellor or know of a local counselling service to recommend.

Ask for help, if your considering suicide then think of it this way, what have you got to loose by asking?

 

[Anime-Zodiac]

People lose hope, a sense of purpose and even don't care but who's to say we can't regain them.
Look to the future, a brighter future and keep fighting. Get strength from what you have endured and what hope there is in the future.