About 6 months ago I posted under a different name that I'm giving myself "8 months at most".
Was going to see if this year something would change and I would be happy. Well nothing changed. The more I live the more people I see the more I realize I just won't be happy amungst everyone. I wouldn't be happy on my own either. So the only logical choice is to end my life.
I've done a lot of research into god the last few months and came to the conclusion that he doesn't exist. If he does exist he isn't all-powerful or he isn't all-good. (omnipotent and omnibenevolent)
I told a friend of mine how I had suicide on my mind. She tried to persuade me to live. I argued to her that it makes sense if you're unhappy but I never really went into how unhappy I am. I'm going to try to tell my parents this reading week and maybe explain that I am unhappy and I must do this (I might try to avoid telling them I'm actually going to kill myself).
Researched a method a while ago. Guess I'll go buy what I need after the break. Then just under a month from now it should all be over.
I have nothing I enjoy, no where to go, nothing and no one to live for. A part of me wants to live but I really believe things can't get better deep down inside and I can't be happy.
thanks for reading... needed to get all that out
Was going to see if this year something would change and I would be happy. Well nothing changed. The more I live the more people I see the more I realize I just won't be happy amungst everyone. I wouldn't be happy on my own either. So the only logical choice is to end my life.
I've done a lot of research into god the last few months and came to the conclusion that he doesn't exist. If he does exist he isn't all-powerful or he isn't all-good. (omnipotent and omnibenevolent)
I told a friend of mine how I had suicide on my mind. She tried to persuade me to live. I argued to her that it makes sense if you're unhappy but I never really went into how unhappy I am. I'm going to try to tell my parents this reading week and maybe explain that I am unhappy and I must do this (I might try to avoid telling them I'm actually going to kill myself).
Researched a method a while ago. Guess I'll go buy what I need after the break. Then just under a month from now it should all be over.
I have nothing I enjoy, no where to go, nothing and no one to live for. A part of me wants to live but I really believe things can't get better deep down inside and I can't be happy.
thanks for reading... needed to get all that out