I'm setting a date, considering I don't do it tomorrow. I have everything I need and the time to do it. The most important person in the world to me is still willing to cast me aside for his family. He won't do anything to defend me. I haven't asked him to choose or anything, but when they treat me badly he won't do anything about it. I just have to bite my tongue in hoping that one day they won't hate me as much as my family does. I want to leave everything behind. I'm so tired of this. I guess no matter what I do I'm the bad person. The choices my boyfriend makes are my fault. Everything that goes wrong is my fault. I won't have any impact on anyone's life when I leave. I'm sure I'll be forgotten. I don't want them to remember me anyway. I don't want them to hate me when I'm dead too. I just don't want to exist anymore and have everyone forget me. My date is Nov. 12, same as my birthday. It seems appropriate. Exactly one month from now. My method will be peaceful, like falling asleep and being numb. I won't have to feel it anymore.