there's a place right down the street from my school.... its the hospital ive been looking at... but i can take the bus down on the 19th...i wouldnt have to face my parents right then and they wouldn't even have to deal with taking me down there..... but i can go and at least try to get some help down there.... ive tried to come up with ways to tell my parents but i cant handle my mother breaking down and wanting me to come clean... and i'd go to my father but he'd just aske me where i went wrong........ i think this will be easiest for everyone around me. i want to go and believe that i can come back and i can have and go through whats left of my "childhood" as a normal person. But i dont want have to come home and be called crazy by my family. I know my family back home will hear of this, and who knows what they'll say about it. just thought id keep up to date and get some stuff off my chest...... thanks for listening.