I know a lot of you will say things like "No one's life is pointless", but I honestly feel like mine is. I've never had a purpose, ever since I've been born. Every day is like an eternity of nothing. My mom said no one will ever be serious about me, and I know she's right. No one ever sticks around, so why should I believe anything else? People never believe in me, and no matter how much I want to prove them wrong, or say it will be different this time, or that I'll show them, they always end up being right. Then they can just smile and say "I told you so" and laugh at me for even thinking things will be different. The present isn't so great, but the future is just dark and bleak. I can't imagine sticking it out much longer than I already have. I guess I'm trying to rationalize to myself that suicide is the right option, as scary as that might be for now. I just have to try my hardest to overcome that fear and do what I've needed to do for decades.