Im 17. She and my dad are in a pretty low part of their marriage right now too: last night, they got into another one of their fights (which are pretty consistent and inevitably ends in my mom bawling and my dad screaming/throwing stuff and the last time, almost choking her if I had not threatened to call 911). She got really drunk, which was a first for her, and started on a four hour drunken rant - nonstop crying and saying everything that came to mind and she's been too afraid to say to my dad before while i sat by her and held her - like how she hates her parents (her dad physically abused her until university), that my dad doesn't love her, he still loves his mother, she's wasted 20 years on him, she's failed at being a woman, etc.. but the most horrifying thing - that she's been thinking to herself when she's alone how she feels like she's lived enough and wants to die, how she's going to see the doctor this month about something that's growing on her uterus or something and how she isn't scared, because she wants to die now anyway. She kept saying she was sorry to me because I'm such a good daughter and she wanted to see me marry and see her grandkids, etc. Today, she is back to her normal self (if not slightly embarrased from the night before) and seemed to have forgotten much of what she said. I HOWEVER have NOT. My relationship with my mom hasn't been the greatest (they immigrated to here when i was six so I speak fluent english to her which she has hard time understanding but still tries to listen not like my dad who doesn't even bother, but that's a whole nother rant). She has some anger management issues which I have been hurt very much in the past, but have learned to not let it affect me as much now. Other than that, she's always been there and always loved me no matter what, supporting me like crazy, sacrificing so much for me, and always has my best interest at heart. I can't imagine living without her and I told her this and that I love her last night after she sobered up a bit. She promised me she won't do anything... but I'm scared to leave her alone. She works by herself because she has her own clinic which only started last year so she doesn't have that many patients yet. I'm leaving for university in the fall (about 1 hour away) living on residence so I'll only be home on weekends (some). I'm an only child and my mom has taken a lot of time to do a lot for me like driving me, cooking, helping etc.. She doesn't have any hobbies or interests - well, it was taking care of me for the past 17 ears, so once I leave, Im scared of what she'll do too.