Hi, I think the easiest way to start this is by saying why are you reading this, I’m in a dark place now and been there almost for 3 days, trying to cope with the pain but I feel that I don’t have nothing to hang onto, I’m thinking ending my life, all my life I was looking for happiness and love, to love and to be loved . . . I’m feeling alone, I know that I’m alone and the crying doesn’t help me anymore, it just helps me get deeper in the “water”, and I can’t swim and there’s no one to throw me a rope or to give me a hand so I can reach out so I don’t drown. Z. P.S. for the moment i would like to keep my identity hidden, hope that's okey for now, i can say that is my first time that I'm reaching out to anyone, even though i had suicidal thought before.