... have really destoyed my mind. I don't feel as sharp as I once did. Even though I get the meds legitimately for a medical condition, I'm finally starting to realize that they're still dangerous and addicting. I want to get off them but I have so much to worry about right now that I don't need to go through any withdrawl period or anything. Plus I don't want to risk reverting back to my old self because I was even more depressed and suicidal. I don't know what to do. Has anyone had any experience with this? Do you think 6 years of taking medication would cause permanent positive changes in my brain and that I could get off them and not end up back where I was before I started taking them? Or am I going to need to be on them for the rest of my life? Thank you very, very much.