I hate it, because I am far from home, in a place where no one knows me or cares about me, and I dont want to end here...but I dont think I can make it until I am able to go back home. I hate myself so much, and as much as I want to forgive myself for being such a fuck up, it seems like no one else is willing to let me. The cherry on top is, when Im found, those same people are just going to keep on talking about how Im am embarrassment or weak or whatever. God, I cant. I cant do this.