I really feel suicidal and I am sorry. I would rather die with what little positive/love memories I have of my now unfortunate ex partner whom I loved so dearly with all my heart. we were both in so much love with each other and so close. so so close. But now as some may know, she has put me in ALOT of trouble with the law for something I did not do and I do not feel I have something strong to defend myself with when time comes for court. for the first time in my life I felt so loved and accomplished. I felt I conquered the business world, the personal professional world in terms of self improvement and development to be a better and decent human being, to have a different approach in life than most.....and finally, the personal world of having a wonderful partner whom I would have married. Now - court case and loss of her and knowing that she has turned into such a bitter person breaks my heart so much, and her probably washing our pure gold love away with someone else and completly forgetting me..... just hurts I would rather die than have a criminal record.