Don't really know where to start so I'll try and put it in some sort of order. For about 7 years, I had a really happy relationship with a girl who I expected to spend the rest of my life with. Then about 2 years ago, I made a choice which would ultimately separate us. The choice resulted in me being put away for a year, it was financially orientated offence. Anyway, she walked and I am now out and have to deal with everything. I haven't managed to get a job yet, albeit its only been a few weeks since I was let out. I find myself waiting for her to come home even though she doesn't live here anymore. I miss her so much, I don't think about stopping at junctions and I just swell up everytime I think of her. I don't talk to her as she doesn't want to talk to me and it's just horrible. I feel like without her I've lost the magic I had in my life, the magic that allowed me to do well in my career and my personal life and because of that there is no hope in me. I just can't seem to see any point in going on without her. Nothing interests me, I get bored really quickly and all I can think about is her. I go out with my friends and get chatting to girls and all I think about is "Your not her" and "where is she, why isn't she here?". My mates are really good and supportive but I'd swap them all for her. I feel like it's just easier for everyone if I just finish things. Thankfully I don't have any children. What's the point? It's not like she is every going to come back!