A few weeks ago i met this girl, she's the older sister of a girl i recently used to like alot so i had my doubts at first. But you only live once, and i was interested in her. So i met her, i have been taking some advice from a dating site so i've been working hard trying to talk to other girls just so i can raise my confidence level to talk to her. This was very hard, when i saw her in the halls even though i was nervous i made the effort to talk to her. Well girls i went for in the past all ended up avoding me, i thought she would be different. But she wasn't, i asked for her number and she gave me some excuse that translates as no. Everyday after that she started avoiding me, 1 time i saw her and her friend literally running out of a lunchroom because i was in there. Today she saw me in the library her and her friend laugh and makes a oh no expression. Then she hides from me again as im passing by, im trying to avoid her but she just keeps finding me and hurting me and it really does hurt. It hurts to know i was wrong, after putting in so much effort this is what i get in return. This is why i was so nervous around her because i feared this would happen but i just told myself i was just making excuses. She just adds on to the list of other girls. They get to be happy and fall in love and make fun off me and its somehow fair. She has no right to treat me like a monster, after i made the effort to talk to her and change me fearful ways, i was probably 1 of the few guys to talk to her in a while hearing she was single for so long and this is what i get back in return. I just don't think this whole talking to girls thing is working for me, maybe 1 day after talking with a girl i'll just randomly kiss her and see her response, all or nothing. Whats the point of getting over a fear when its real. But still i feel i can't go on. I thought if I was brave and i actually put in the effort to make things better things would be different but things just stayed the same. Girls still avoid me, im still single, and they still live on being happy.