I thought just before opening the drink, this isn't a good idea, yet I still opened it. I've spent a week and a half totally sober, mostly because ive had a chest infection, but I didn't have the slightest thought once I need alcahol. And today I just now, opened a drink. I just thought I need a drink. And worse I didn't just pick up one drink, I picked up three. So much for me not needing alcahol, I don't want this I just need it. I know mine is no where near as bad as others but for me it's bad. When I felt like this before 5 years ago I had black hair, a twist of fate lately and I've ended up with black hair by mistake, I know its just a coincidence but it just made me think.