You think your family would feel better if you died? In my (limited) experience, people tend just to be so glad that you are still around to shout at. But I'm not at all underestimating how difficult you feel it is. :hug:
I don't live with my Parents Beret, I live with my 3 children, youngest 16 now. I am an adult evn though I act like a fool at times, LOL. Thankyou for being nice to me Beret, You brought tears to my eyes, Thankyou.
i understand you being scared of the backlash.i know those feelings too.Believe me i do.All too well.i know how they can contribute in paralysing you making it so hard to act.Really i do and hun i think youve been so brave to post and id love to hear more from you and speak more with you.i really really would and i'll wait here for you but you need to take another step.You need to go to a hospital......please.
Oh God, I just can't pick that phone up!!! you don't understand. I just can't utter those words out loud, my family would be sooooooooooooo ashamed of me. I couldn't stand for them to treat me with kid gloves, I couldn't bear it!!! I might as well be dead
I'm guessing that shame would be the last thing on their minds... but yes, I can't deny that kid gloves might be used at first but they'll soon settle down again. Please don't let embarrassment kill you!
Hun, its so much better feeling ashamed and staying alive, than dying im misery. Please, please please do it. You dont want to faint and then being found by your family tomorror and being in real misery for a couple more days in the hospital. please just do it...
You know, in actual fact you don't even need to tell them anything. When I've od'd I just said not to inform anyone (easy for me as my family are in a different city). Then the decision to tell or not was up to me afterwards. You're an adult... you need to make your own decisions. You must want to do it, at least partly, or we wouldn't be having this conversation.