so i've been getting treated and have been trying to use CBT but am having a really hard time implimenting it in my life. i have had 4 suicide attempts where i have ended up telling someone after the overdose. this time i <mod edit, TDM: methods> to see if i could do it without telling someone. well i ended up falling asleep and waking up about 12 hours later but now i feel like its hard to breath sometimes. anyways i know its not a serious drug to overdose on but i just wanted to do it to see if i could go through with it and not tell anyone so next time i decide to take something more serious like muscle relaxers or something i wont tell anyone. i honestly dont even know if i should tell my therapist tomorrow that i did it because i dont want her to send me to the crazy floor of the hospital because i hate it up there.