Today, me and my friend were walking from the high school to the elementry school to pick up her sister. We were talking, well she was. I was just staring at my feet. The urge had came suddenly and caught me off guard. We were along the highway and I couldn't even feel myself edge closer to the road. Soon enough I was walking towards the middle. I didn't even know what was happening until I felt my friend grab me and drag me back just as a car clipped my arm. I fought with her, flailing and kicking until I had fallen off the barrier and down the grass hill. I'm not sure why I tried...Everything just hit me hard. I miss people I don't talk to anymore, I'm not wanted in school. I can't get a passing grade to save my life and all the social activity I get is getting bullied. I feel so utterly alone, and I guess I just wanted to run to my end. This happened just an hour ago, and I'm shaking and numb. I barely remember what was going through my mind. I'm just so terrified, and sad it didn't work. I'm also in alot of physical pain. My arm is bleeding but I don't care and I'm scraped and bruised.