I am not sure if anyone remembers my previous post, but it is here http://www.suicideforum.com/showthread.php?t=55116. I wanted to give those who read it a update. I finally got the courage to call, and explained my financial situation about having no insurance and no job. I was hoping she would be work with me a lot, but is seemed she really did not want to. I was hoping something like $25-35 a session, but she said $75. There is just really no way I can pay $75 each time, but it is ok. I need help really bad, and I finally got the courage to call, and this is what happens. As I said it is okay though. My life is hopeless, and I want to die more and more each day. I have nothing to live for, I have nothing to look forward to. There is nothing in this world that makes me happy anymore. I have no one in this world to share things with. My mother knows I am depressed, but she simply tells me take a pain pill and go to sleep. So you see I say it is okay though, because I do not want to live anyway. There is no hope for me.