Last night i decided that it was time so i wrote a suicide note and got my rifle and pulled the trigger... and nothing happened so i tried it again and again but it just wouldn't fire i thought i was going to rust the barrel after as long as i had that rifle in my mouth. I have had alot of problems lately. I graduated 5 months ago and since then my mother has screamed at me for 12 hours a day to get a job even though i don't have a car and i live in a small town where there are no jobs then i tried to join the navy to get away from her but i cant lose enough weight to get in. Today when i told her i probably would not be able to lose the weight she said i have 2 days to find a college or she would kick me out and i would be homeless. i just don't see any other way out of this. I'm just a problem for everyone I'm useless even in my suicide note i wrote that i was sorry about the mess and that i was only doing it to make everyone else's life easier.