You're probably right about the hospital not giving a damn. I will agree with you on that, because most of the people that work at hospitals are so busy they don't have the time to even think twice about the patients they are seeing. HOWEVER, these are the regular hospital workers. These are NOT the people that you need to be talking to at the hospital. I would like to see you go to the hospital to get help with your issues, but when you get there explain why you are there and explain to them that you are wanting to admit yourself so you can get some help. Make sure to tell them you're suicidal. They will then make sure you taken to get the help you deserve. The doctors and staff in these areas of the hospitals care very much for their patients and they want to help. Many of them have been in your same shoes or they have been through the same issues with someone they care deeply for. These are the people in the hospital that I hope and pray you will turn to for help. They will do everything they can to help you. You can get better and you can over come this. You deserve to be happy just as everyone else does.
IF you do not want to go back to the hospital and ask them, you still have one other option to use. You can also make an appointment to go see a regular family doctor and he/she can refer you out to get the help you need.
Please consider these options. You have nothing to lose by doing so and so very much to gain. Good Luck to you.
QUOTE=Metallica*Melinda;170989]i did go 2 the hospital... they dont give a fuck. 2morrow i have 2 get surgery[/QUOTE]