I cant do this anymore, I just cant, I tried so very very hard to make this work, but it can never work. I keep kidding myself that in time these feelings will fade, well how on earth do I explain still crying about you, how do I explain still thinking about you for half my waking life, how do I explain the feeling of sickness I get when I see you flirting with someone else, I just cant do it.
I love you so very much, im deluding myself to think otherwise, and I cant think of any other way for me to go forward. I would dearly love nothing more than to have a beautiful friendship with you, but how can we be friends when I cant bare to talk about your love for him, or anyone else for that matter.
True friends share there most intimate thoughts, there most private feelings, and we cant do that, theres no way we can.
I hope one day I can start talking to you again, because your an angel, and my life is really nothing without you.
I dont want you to worry about me, Im going to be fine...once I let all the tears flow, and the pain escape, maybe one day ill be ready to take this journey again.
I dont want you to hurt yourself either because of this, it wasnt your fault. Its just me not being a big enough man to overcome my love for you, Its just too damn hard.
Im not sure im going to be talk with many people on SF soon, everything is just adding up, I just need a release, I need to cry for days on end.
I love you, I always will, please never forget me, ill never forget you.
Goodbye Blubs
Love
Matt xxx
I love you so very much, im deluding myself to think otherwise, and I cant think of any other way for me to go forward. I would dearly love nothing more than to have a beautiful friendship with you, but how can we be friends when I cant bare to talk about your love for him, or anyone else for that matter.
True friends share there most intimate thoughts, there most private feelings, and we cant do that, theres no way we can.
I hope one day I can start talking to you again, because your an angel, and my life is really nothing without you.
I dont want you to worry about me, Im going to be fine...once I let all the tears flow, and the pain escape, maybe one day ill be ready to take this journey again.
I dont want you to hurt yourself either because of this, it wasnt your fault. Its just me not being a big enough man to overcome my love for you, Its just too damn hard.
Im not sure im going to be talk with many people on SF soon, everything is just adding up, I just need a release, I need to cry for days on end.
I love you, I always will, please never forget me, ill never forget you.
Goodbye Blubs
Love
Matt xxx