I am sorry I tried so hard I really did, I can take no more. I am not looking for support and help anymore, I am looking for a way to. I know that is not what this site is about but I see no other way out. I gave living a go, it didn't work out for me. This site is amazing and it kept me going for so long but I am beyond help. I have told my boyfriend to move on, I know my parents are fed up of me. There is nothing stopping me now, I just need to put my plans into action. I am so sorry too all the people have let down (there are plenty) I love you **** I always will, I am going to miss you so much, you where my whole life but I cant go on doing this to you.