i tried to get out and be sociable to try and get my mind off things, my friend mary invited me over to have a drink so i went against my better judgement, but that was a big mistake, cause now after 10 shots and constant fighting between her and her hubby i now feel worse. i even tried talking to my aunt since she is the only family member still in my life, but no, it didnt help. the truth is im tired. people tell me to keep fighting but thats all i have ever done, im sick of it, and i have nothing left to fight for. so whats the friggin point? the only reason i post in here is because maybe someone else here knows how im feeling, or at least partially understands. i cant take this anymore, im not strong enough.