Hi Lilly, Life is full of surprises.. Some good and some bad.. When you hit a bad spot then you need to keep pushing, you will end up on the other side..Please don't give up on life..I have tried to kill myself three times and didn't succeed.. It started when I was thirteen and now I am fifty four and still having suicidal thoughts.. I just address them everyday and it helps me to keep clinging on to life.. I hope you feel better soon..