Linda - your weeks leave from the psych unit was a bad idea - your not ready honey - you need more time in the hospital - you really do!
Please, please do phone them up - even the police as they would know what to do and saved you last time.
I'm really upset for you - not at you.
I wish I was in the USA but I'm in the UK - but either way all I'd do is drive you to the hospital, chat to you - and I hope you get a friend to share things with.
You know who I am - and my name!
Few do!
We are friends and I care a lot about you - and worry about you and for you.
And pray also you get some peace of mind.