I don't want this under my real name because i don't need to talk from certain people on here. But i can't handlr being hurt like this, this is one kind of hurt i never thought i'd have to go through and i am. I wanna say sorry for this. I really am. Im gonna go get the things i need. Strong pills and some vodka, its not like i havn't done the pills before. Written a ;etter to my mum, explains about this place. She knows about a few people here because you've made a positive impact that i have talked about you. Some i actually got in to trouble for talking to because you live in another country. But it apparently saved you from doing something so it was worth it. Im gonna take care of that before the days out. Can't leave her with money problems. She can decided what to do with the letter. Im sorry, i really am. I did this under here so it wasn't under my name but yet i can still say sorry for these actions. I don't wanna be the cause of anyone else's death so its best if you never know who this is. Im sorry.