My psychiatrist said he wishes my trust in him would be as important than the one I have on your forum. He said that everything I put here, I should be able to tell him. Trusting my psychiatrist as much as Suicide Forum: fail. Even if he follows me since almost 5 years, if he knew all the horror vision I have Inside, he would admit me to the hospital for ever. I am planning HUGE revenge scenarios on the 3 persons who got together in order to have me fired from my job. (and I can not even hire a lawyer to proove it) I will ruin their lifes and they wont have an idea from where it is coming. Thank you Hotmail. I cant say that to my psy... what if he ever has to testify in a court... or anything like that. The revenge is in the middle of my bucket list. I have to keep some time to see them ruined like me.