I hope that they could let me go without it totally destroying them, I don't want them to feel that I didn't love them enough, but my husband is teaching my youngest to regard me with scorn. They have called me lazy, that I look like a boy, that I dress like a grandma and that I am a joke. My son moved out 4 years ago as he couldn't bear to live with us any longer, my mother is too busy with her Saturday job and my sister and other grand daughter, I called her today to see if it was still ok if my daughter could come over to stay and she said she would have to take the day off work and my sister wouldn't be around to help or see her. They haven't seen me or her in 6 months. my sister is always doing things with her daughter and can't see or return my calls, my father died this year and when I spoke to my step mother today she had visitors so couldn't speak again. My husband has taken a day off work to play golf, he got a tax rebate recently and has spent all £900 on himself going to the World Cup rugby, music gigs etc. He complains if I don't stay in the house or if I drink fizzy drinks or eat snacks as they are for him or our daughter. I work and have recently been told that I cost too much and my job is being given to someone else, I teach autistic/ Asperger teens and look after a group of children who are in care. Sorry about all this tumbling out of me, but I just cannot do any of this as I am now so worth nothing i am nothing.