Hi time to reach out okay call crisis line call your doctor go to hospital but get some help for you. You do not have to be in this kind of pain okay please reach out post here let us know why you are so sad. hugs
I suppose you already completed your ns so you are old enough. So why are you so bitter against your parents? Jobless? Many young people are jobless nowadays despite graduating from uni. Take it easy. It takes time to get a job. Many are jobless even after a year plus after completing their education.