To put it simply im 21 its incredibly hard to even keep typeing this even thou i know im wasteing my time, Y? because i dont even know if i care who reads this. Life IS unfair and there is no equility. Im lucky in some respect, im social, some people do like me. I have a roof over my head....but having that roof is just a stepping stone. Inside im lonely... i have no family... i got beaten and verbaly abused for the past 21 years.... im used to hearing arguements everyday. I have to stand by and watch people destroy themsleves being depressed and self destructing because they wont let anyone help them or help themselves. I have done everything myslef ive always put on a brave face... ive tryed to be a good person because i have seen so much bad i believe it is rare for people to be good... so i try to be. I have no control in my life... money is everything i dont care what you tell yoursleves, i genuienly believe im cursed, if there was a devil he wants me to kill myself... i have been so ...... god i wish i could believe this message is even worth it. The only reason im still alive is cause im a coward... i dont wanna die painfully and i can get hold of<Mod edit: methods> everything is hard i havnt ever had a break from bad things. i struggle. The funny thing is the people i keep close as my friends dont have a clue you know y? ive had my experiece of having good close friends but no1 wants you to shit on the parade...and i wouldnt want to.