I feel like I've completely thrown my life away. I started college this year and I'm doing horribly. I'm not going to most of my classes, not doing homework. I just sit in bed all day. I've just gotten so behind that I just can't do this anymore. I feel guilty for wasting my parents' money, and for wasting my professors' time. My parents think I'm doing so much better, but I am honestly so much worse than I've ever been. I feel like a burden to everyone and I don't think my friends like me anymore. I just wish I wasn't here anymore. I wish I could start college over. I know I'd do better and I'd try harder, because I hate myself for doing this to myself. I wish I could tell my friends about this, but whenever I try to talk to them about this kind of stuff, they just act so weird around me and they don't help at all. They just end up telling other people and I just hate that. I just don't know what to do. I don't know if this will make any sense to anyone, my mind is just going a little crazy right now.