I want a gun

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Scully, Nov 14, 2009.

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  1. Scully

    Scully Well-Known Member

    Many of you know my story here. And when I'm at home, my partner doesn't care what I can go through. He says if I don't have indemnities anymore, then I'll work. But I can't. Not ready, not the strenght. People, people. I just want to be left in peace. He doesn't care about my story, my father issues. I have no over choice. Death.
     
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi Dana,

    You do have other choices, why don't you try relationship counselling or even leave your partner? If he is causing you that much pain , wouldn't it be for the best? :hug:
     
  3. Scully

    Scully Well-Known Member

    I have no choice. No money anymore. I quit working 8 months ago. To go where? I have no parents. Before I did only little jobs, because I have BDP, didn't know it before. I hope it's because he doesn't realize how hard it is for me. I'm on meds, psychiatrist, psychologist. Social worker. I'm done here. I have no physical strenght anymore.
     
  4. spidy

    spidy Well-Known Member

    I feel for ya dont really know what to say apart from stay strong for yaself
     
  5. Scully

    Scully Well-Known Member

    I'm trying. It's hard for me to talk about my feelings, or just talk over issues, because I'm used to keeping it all inside and do my stuff, broadly. Especially with him. We've known for 8/9 years. I tried to talk things out a little more. How important all the efforts I've made and the progresses too. It's still fragile and if compromised now, it's like I did nothing and worse, throw me back, before. He said totally. But to see what the social worker says first. He went to do shopping today. He doesn't look affected at all.
     
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