Does anyone know of any way I can contract a disease that is both untreatable and terminal? The past couple of years of my life have been a downward spiral and I'm ready for it to just stop. It would take hours to explain everything, but I'm a complete failure at life. I hate myself for the mistakes I've made and the fact that I haven't even got the most basic skills necessary to have a happy, normal life. I have no social skills and I destroyed my relationship with the one person in the world who loved me enough to help me compensate for my problems. I'm absolutely certain I will never find anyone like her again. I don't want to kill myself because I know that would be devastating to my family, so I just want to die from cancer or some other terminal disease, if it's even possible to contract something like that intentionally.