i have never been in your position but what i can tell you is i was homeless during my teenage years and throughout those years ive always had suicidal thoughts, but i got past that point, the only thing i can tell you right now is IT GETS BETTER
in the end everything will be ok, if its not ok then its not the end
life isnt easy, think about all the people around the world right now whos poor and living in famine, the people who have cancer and only have acouple of months to live, the people who get treated like crap by people who think theyre topsh*t
you know how many people would love to be in your position? you gotta love life, you are very fortunate, i hope you understand that.
i plead you not to result to suicide, you are better then that, i may not knw your name but alreayd from your post i can tell you are a strong man, you've lasted this long,you can keep going.
"i want it to stop", so do i, and we're here to help and support you, go outside and for 1 minute look in the sky, breathe the fresh air, its a new start. A journey starts with 1 step at a time.
BE the change you wish to see in this world